But hardly had I touched the first button of my ankle boot when my chest swelled, filled with an unknown, divine presence, I was shaken by sobs, tears streamed from my eyes. The person who had che tipo di esatto my assistance, who was rescuing me from my aridity of soul, was the one who, several years before, at an identical moment of distress and loneliness, per moment when I in nessun caso longer had anything of myself, had entered, and who had restored me puro myself, for it was both me and more than me (the container which is more than the content, and had brought it esatto me). I had just glimpsed, per my memory, bent over my fatigue, the tender, concerned, disappointed face of my grandmother, such as she had been on that first evening of our arrival; the face of my grandmother who had nothing of her but her name, but of my true grandmother, the living reality of whom, for the first time since the Champs-Elysees, where she had suffered her stroke, I had rediscovered con verso complete and involuntary memory.

This reality does not exist for us until such time as it has been maesta-created mediante our minds (otherwise, the men who have been involved mediante some titanic battle would all be great epic poets); thus, con per wild desire to hurl myself into her arms, it was only at this instant- more than a year after her funeral, on account of the anachronism which so often prevents the calendar of facts from coinciding with that of our feelings- that I had just learned she was dead. I had spoken of her often since that time and thought of her also, but beneath the words and thoughts of an ungrateful, selfish, and cruel young man there had never been anything that might resemble my grandmother, for, con my frivolity, my love of pleasure, and accustomed as I was sicuro seeing her as an invalid, I contained within me the memory of what she had been only mediante per virtual state.

I was nothing more than the being who had sought refuge mediante his grandmother’s arms, preciso erase the traces of her sorrows by giving her kisses, the being I would have had as great difficulty durante imagining to myself

It is niente affatto doubt the existence of our body, similar for us to per vase durante which our spirituality is enclosed, that induces us onesto suppose that all our inner goods, our past joys, all our sorrows, are perpetually per our possession.

On the very first night, as I was suffering from an attack of cardiac fatigue, trying onesto https://lovingwomen.org/it/donne-francesi/ overcome the pain, I bent down slowly and cautiously to remove my boots

Now, since the self that I had suddenly monarca-become had not existed since that far-off evening when my grandmother had undressed me on my arrival durante Balbec, it was, quite naturally, not after the day we were living, of which that self knew nothing, but- as if there were, per time, different and parallel series- without any break durante continuity, immediately after that first evening sopra the past, that I adhered to the moment when my grandmother had leaned toward me. The self that I was then and which had vanished all that time ago, was once again so close to me that I seemed esatto hear still the words that had come immediately before, yet which were in nessun caso more than verso dream, just as per man not properly awake thinks he can perceive close beside him the sounds of his receding dream.